Reminiscent of Us

Dear hubby to be,

For the last couple of days, I keep smells you. You were more than 5-30kms away from me. But seriously, I could smell you. There was no one nearby me and I smell you. That's either I miss you so much or you miss me so much. Only God Knows.

It basically digs my memory of you. I'm pretty sure, you didn't know that I saw you for the first time at the embassy six years ago. At that time I had boyfriend and you had girlfriend. I thought, if I were single, I'd cached you and made you my bf. That was six years ago.

For the next four years, I'd never ever see you. Probably I did when I went to your house for Eid celebrations. But to be honest, I didn't even notice you. Till two years ago, when my aunts started mentioned you in every conversations. I was like... Oh.. I know this guy. So what's good about this guy?

My parents went to Melbourne and one of my aunts mentioned you to them. They were interested to know you and your family. I don't know what happened but at the end we went to your place, you weren't there. You're at work. Our parents met up thou. Since then our family becomes closer. At this stage, we weren't close yet. You had girlfriend and I had mine.

However, because of the intensity of seeing each other, well, of course it wasn't just the two of us, we become closer and closer. Until you popped up that question, which I said no first, then I said yes on your second attempt.

I still remember my feeling when we went out for the first time. Only the two of us. I remember, that was also the first time you hug me and hold my hand. You were trying to please me because I was stressing out with the footy final game that was happening at that day.

I still remember the feeling of our first kiss. It was at your apartment, three days after. It was so soft. Don't get me wrong, it's still soft until now. The best kiss I ever have so far. My favorite is when you kiss my forehead, hug for a minute and then ruffles my hair.

I remember how our conversations flow easily lately. It's like we know each other for so long, therefor sometimes we don't talk but we do whatever we need to do instead of speaking. We complete each other. I also remember, it was like we were two stones standing next to each other few months back.

I remember, I used to not telling you about what's happening around me. You weren't interested as well. It has changed. I started to tell you everything and you started to want to know about it. I used to do whatever I want to do without asking your permission, but it has changed. You never say no or reject it. Your principe is as long as I'm honest, even though the truth is a bit shocking, you'll never reject it.

I remember when you asked whether I want to take a pic of us. I was surprised. I know that you don't really like taking picture. But you're offered me. I never say no to pic ... So of course I accepted it. I asked you, the reason behind it. You said that, you know I like taking picture and you know that I want a pic of us. I never mentioned it to you about that. Again, I was surprised that you can read my mind.
That was our first pic, taken using your camera phone. You took 6-7 pics of us! Then we do it again the next month and the next one. We basically doing it every month now. Again, it based on your mood. LOL.

I remember when you texted me just saying recharge tomorrow. I jumped out. I seriously jumped out of my bed. I was still on my holiday, while you're worked already. The recharge happened the next day at lunch. That day you asked me the important question. When I look into your eyes I didn't see just you, I saw my today, my tomorrow, and my future for the rest of my life :)

On my birthday, you gave me lil surprise. I never told you about my birthday, but you sent me a message just to say happy birthday. That's sweet of you. I was flying to the moon when I received heaps of gifts from you and your family. I gasped when I opened it. Those gifts are so expensive. Well, not as expensive as Rhea, our baby. But still...

I also remember the day I picked you up at the airport. You were away to indo for weeks. You slept on the way back to your house, but you asked for recharge when I helped you unpacked your stuff. The same thing happened the day you picked me up at the airport months after. It makes me come to a conclusion, you can't stand away from me for more than 2 weeks. You keep asking a recharge once we haven't meet for 3weeks or more.

The next big thing is your birthday. I remember, last year I bought you a tee of your vehicle's brand in the same colour as your vehicle. That was a special made tee. You were surprised and happy with it. This year, I'm planning to give you a bombastic one. Way more expensive that last year's gift. You just need to wait :)

For every day, I miss you. For every hour, I need you. For every minute, I feel you. For every second, I want you. Forever, I love you.

Sacrifice of Love

Dear hubby to be,

I've been searching a perfect birthday gift for you for 2 weeks! I know your birthday is still months away. I remember that. However, I really want to make you happy. Therefor I'm trying my best to give you the best birthday gift you ever received.

I love seeing your happy face when you receiving and opening the gift from me. Even thou the previous gift was with the wrong size. I do love how you were trying to please me by saying that you can alter it to suit. But, I felt so guilty. I felt like I don't care you enough.

Therefor for your birthday gift, I don't want to make the same mistake. I really want to see your smile and joy face on your happiest day. I've tried to understand you. Your hobby. What's your interest. Etc. It's actually not that difficult since we have similar hobbies and interests.

However, I came to the conclusion that the gift has to be something that you love the most. Then I need to find the smaller model of it. First problem has been solved. Then the next problem appears. I can't find the gift! I've been searching all over the place. To the real shop till the online shop around the world. Well, there are some model that similar. But it's not the same product. Also, it's cost me an arm and a leg.

Then, I secretly went to your room. Well actually, it wasn't secret. You were there. Played a game on your computer. You knew I was there. You must be remembered that I were looking at your model and I were trying to memorize it. I hope you didn't think anything stupid about what I was doing :)
Sorry I'd disturb your concentration. I didn't mean to make you lose. Oh wait, you're made yourself lose so you could hugs and kisses me! Fair enough. Lol.

Back to the topic. I've made my mind. I'll give you the latest model of your existing model. And I'll explain to you what happen during the searching (yes, I know you won't care. But I love explaining something to you). About the price.. Well, it is of course cost me an arm and a leg. But who cares? As long as you are happy, I don't mind spending that amount of money :)

For love, you do need to sacrifice. And I love you so much ❤

I love you more each day

Dear hubby to be,

Two days ago, when I just woke up, I suddenly felt the eager to made you your favorite cake. So I went out to shop the ingredients I need for it.
I spent about 2hrs making 2 types of your favorite cake and cookies. For your information, these are my new recipes. I never tried them before, however because they're your favorites, I learnt.

I contacted your mom and asked her whether she wants to try the cake and cookies as well or not. I shouldn't asked her, because her answer will always yes. Lol.

She told me that you're currently ill. I was kinda shock when your mom told me that you're sick. I never heard a word saying that you're sick from yourself.

This is one thing I hate about you. You always keep your problems to yourself and never share it with me. You'll share it when you've solved it.

So, I brought them to your place. You're still in your room, busy played new game on your computer I believe. I hanged around with your mom downstairs. She told me that your dad really loves the polo shirt I gave and wants to use it everyday! He keeps telling everyone that the polo is from his daughter in law. Oh how I love your dad ❤
An hour later you went downstairs. I'm pretty sure that because you heard my voice. I offered you to try the cake. You didn't answer, you went straightaway to the kitchen instead. I followed you like a dog follows her/his master. You went to other kitchen bench where the plates located, while I went to the cake side, cut a slice. You gave me the small plate and I filled in with the cake and a cookie while I explained that those are from my new recipe.

You asked me what's new in this recipe. I told you that I used dark chocolate baking instead of chocolate powder. You ate it, "This is not sweet".
I shocked. "Really?! Oh! I only put 150gr of sugar because I don't really like sweet"

You looked at me with quizzical look "Really? You don't like sweet?" You ate another bite "My dad will likes it"
I looked at him "I know. He just like me. Prefer something that's not too sweet. So, next time if I bake for you, I'll put mmmm... 250gr of sugar?"
You nodded "yeah.. I think that'll be enough"

You rose up, put your empty plate in the dishwasher. I was amazed. You ate them all. Even thou you were complaining, you finished them up! Now this is the other reason why I love you more each day. You always finish every dishes I made for you no matter how bad it tastes or appearances.

Then you hugged me, kissed my forehead and said thank you.

I'm flying to the 7th heaven! :)

A Confession

Dear my hubby to be,

I believe you know that I love you too much. Since you keep mention it everytime we see each other. Yes, I'm too easy to be read by you.

However, there's a thing I've never told you. A thing that will make you draw a disbelief look on me. You are not my type. There. I said it.

I myself was surprised when I realized that I fall for you. A guy who's 100% not a man of my dream.

As we became closer and more intimate, I fallen in love with you. Im pretty sure that the biggest cause of it are our regular meeting and our regular fun thing.

Yes, we barely speak. Even when we meet up. We show our feeling through our body language. The best thing is I don't even need to open my mouth when I want something. You just do whatever I have in mind. You can read my mind. OBVIOUSLY! (and I keep questioning you with it, as usual you just giving me your naughty smile as your answer)

I'm the one who's struggling with you. You're a hard person to read. You're childish in some way, yet mature at the same time. You're cool, yet caring. You're an angel in disguise. You're a mix!

Someone asked me the other day "what's so special about him". I was stunned and try to rebuild my memory of all the reasons why I've fallen so hard for you...
You're unbelievably smart, you have this sense of humor that can make anyone smile (especially me) ...
You are adorably cute, and your personality is so unique and different from everyone else's...
The list continued, however the last and final thought I had was "it's because he cares."

I have truthfully never been with a guy who cares, the way you do. The way you take care of me when I cry and feel scared. It's the way you look at me with those eagle eyes.

It's the way you make me feel like we aren't right for anyone else. It's the way you make me feel like I'm the only one that matters.

I know that I will never find what I have with you, with anyone else, and at this very moment I don't believe that I could be as happy as I am with you, with anyone else...

Its the way you ruffled my hair when I cling into you. It's the way you hold me, so tight and close. It's the way you keep me warm with your body on mine. And it's the way I smile, because I know I could never be happier, than where I am now, with you.

However, the happy days are here and now. I found my home in you :) . You are the road I want to take. You are apple in my eyes. I love you now, despite you're far beyond my type. and I will love you forever until death do us apart.

A cheer up letter for a friend

Dear My Lady,

When a guy says something, you should take it as it is. He said it himself "one-sided love" even after you guys kissed and been in a "relationship" status for few months.
I think he's "trying" to love you back. But when he's not in the mood, he's not forcing himself to love you. Thus the silent attitude from him. That's when you feel hurt because he's not "THERE" completely yet.

I think it's all up to you..

You can be loyal and wait for him to love you back, and adapt/tolerate/put-up with his indecisive decision to be with you (which is not cool btw).

Or you can show him that you're not that kind of woman who he can just go back to when he feels like it. Either he makes up his mind and be serious to really want you as his woman, or stop treating you like a back-up wheel.

Changing a man is an expensive waste of your time, heart + energy. It's a long way with so many detours and road bumps on the way to happiness.
And as your best friend, I don't want you to go thru this kind of relationship.

You're not gonna be happy while waiting for him to really love you. You should make him do the efforts to win your heart. Instead of just giving it to him when he's playing a sweet role who will last for God knows how long before he turns self-centered again.

If he "love" you, he will want to spend a lot of time with you. If he "love" you, he will care to give and lavish you with his love and affection that makes you feel desired, wanted and truly loved.

Sorry if I'm being tough. Trust me I've been there. Its so easy to spot which guy's worth our heart and which is not :)

I know you are not ready to end up your relationship with him. Its ok if you are not ready. You still have feelings from him. Take your time.

But remember. They key to hapiness is to know how worth-it you are. Your heart matters.
God will not hand her daughter to a man who's not going to represent His love thru a man who can't do the job properly.
So if the man is not quite representing God-like love to you, then there's no need to be anxious about that guy.

See the red flag and encourage yourself to get yourself out from the expensive game.

Much Love,

Your BFF

Movie Reviews: Monster, Blue Valentine, Somewhere, Tron Legacy 3D

Monsters

I thought it's all about fighting with a weird creatures.. the fact is...it's a drama -____- quite good thou....

3stars

Blue Valentine...
Very touching movie. to be honest..i cried at the end of the movie... amazed with the production time... it took 12yrs to finish. but no doubt..the movie is good. oh well, it's not a hollywood kind of movie... not a blockbuster movie's type.

4 stars

Somewhere

To be honest, i dont understand the message they're trying to say. But then, after few hours (yes..i keep thinking of it) and my housemate's helps, i quite understand it. :D Love the story... some people will find it boring, but it's also make people curious. Sofia Coppola successfully made everyone stayed until the movie was ended. :D

It's funny..it's a bit touching,,, and more importantly, i enjoy it! :D

4 stars

Tron Legacy 3D

I expected more action, but no offense, this movie is crap! What a waste. I should have watched it in normal cinema than Imax -___- However, the soundtrack is awesome. Daft punk rock!

2.5 stars

Movie Review: Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 1

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Movie Review: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1

by Niea Nadya on Thursday, November 18, 2010 at 9:28pm

BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST Harry Potter movie so far!! and it successfully made me and Angie jumped out from our seats :D

Oh well... Imax never turn me down.

If you have read the book, this part 1 will be the boring part. However, I slightly bored. I was actually thrilled! Geeeeeeesssshh.. I cant even count how many times I jumped out from my seat :D

I cried (a bit), I laughed, I jumped. I think it quite explains how the movie gonna looks like :D

And just to warn you. This movie is focusing on Hermione.

Oh.. btw, I love the scene when the tale of The Three Brothers was told. It was a beautifully animated sequence, narrated by Hermione, that gives the film a nice break from its bleak reality. Its aesthetic difference from the rest of the film also highlights the importance of the story, which is all about the titular Deathly Hallows.

A birthday and a Max Rooke's Moment on a 'Public Sandwiched Day'

Today, on a 'Public Sandwiched Day' (yes I made up this name), we’re celebrating JS (late) birthday at the office. Even though the cake wasn’t look pretty anymore when we opened the box, because NN had difficulty on brought it on her bike (yes... I screwed it), it’s tasted delicious.

We also did our Max Rooke’s moment. He’s former Geelong Cats player who retired this year. Max Rooke’s Moment is write down our dream on a piece of paper, and then burn them. However, AB had brilliant idea. Other than burning it, which means we demolish our dream. Gone. Finish. So we burying it.

Save our planet, save our tree :)



NN

Standing Tall; Confidence, teamwork, and learning to lead

Most people find it hard to be a leader, so then they prefer to be a follower. In my way of thinking, both are equal. They have the same goals but different responsibilities. Yet, they should have same basic values to reach success, which consist of:

1. Honesty; All team members, both leaders and followers, should show their honesty both in words and with the integrity of their actions.
2. Empathy; Most of the time, people think showing empathy is a weakness. On the contrary, it's actually demonstrating that a person with empathy is a person of substance.
3. Humility; Some people with no manners usually don't show their graciousness in victory. There's no need to ram their success down other people's throats. Try to be down to earth.
4. Unity; In a group setting, it ignites a sense of belonging and ownership. Usually they have strong bond and will therefore rally together when it matter the most.
5. Last, but not least, is Respect. To achieve success, every team member should respect themselves, other people and opportunities given to the team, because respect needs to be earned and to earn it, people should show it and give it.

Once team members have those values we can say that the organisation consist of good people. The next step to get closer to achieving success is up skill them and find the right positions for them.

Those are a few things that were mentioned in Tom Harley's book, Standing Tall. He is a former AFL player who wasn't merely a regular player but also a captain of the greatest team during 2007-2009. This book taught us what a good leader has to do and what a good follower has to do. to achieve goals. Basically, it taught leadership and teamwork in order to achieve the team's goals.

Tom Harley admits that a lot of leadership is innate; that is, some people are simply born with it. However, everyone can actually be a leader. Mostly, people think that to be a good leader they have to be good or best in a particular field or anything. As a matter of fact, they don't have to.

A good leader is about being rounded and having common interests. That leads to the ability to relate to a wide range of people and empathise with them and also to be able to influence. A good leader is not afraid to share the loads with team members. They also use language that is positive and inclusive by focusing on the team. Tom Harley uses Saint Kilda's Captain, Nick Riewoldt as an example of this. He never uses 'I' words in every speech regarding the Saints. He uses 'we' when answering all the questions about the team and himself. He focuses on the team.

While a good follower should always tell the truth, because it is their obligation to share his or her best observations and advice with the team leader. A good follower has to understand the leader's vision, so then they will be dedicated to undertaking what is required to achieve the team's goals. They also have to have a 'can do' attitude and also be dependable and reliable. Last but not least, a good follower should have the keenness to learn. So the team's followers can be improved which leads to a better team,

Tom Harley also mentioned about first impressions. He believed a first impression is one of the most important parts in achieving success. To make a good first impression, we have to show confidence when we first meet someone; be polite; repeat people's name; be interested and also don't forget to follow up after that meeting.

Other ingredients to achieve success are that each individuals should be able to show passion; that leads to more stead fast actions in achieving goals. Secondly preparation; which is focusing on the process and evaluating it. It's more about the process, not the outcome. Thirdly, purpose; which drives what we do and also shows everyone that we're serious and committed to do well. We also have to be patient, because not everything works like a dream. In fifth position, pride; which is actually not a bad thing to have. It's not being a show off, but the main purposes of having pride is to drive to do our best. Lastly, we also have to show punctuality; to shows that you are reliable and can be counted on.

There's nothing wrong with showing all of those qualities, however it is important to have balance in life; that is having our priorities in order. So that we're maintaining the right levels of enjoyment and satisfaction in both our working lives and personal lives. Oh.. and don't forget to enjoy little wins along the way and take a moment to smell the roses.

They are just some pieces of advice from Tom Harley that are written in the book. Since he was a Cat's player, most of the chapters are talking about his experiences in the team. It's sort of a biography of him during his time as an AFL player. He also mentions some other AFL players who gave him great advice and examples.

However, I found the way he writes it down is interesting. He doesn't sound patronizing, yet to my way of thinking it's more like story telling - a bundle of short stories.

I was skeptical at the beginning, but I must admit, this book is a good book to read while you're on the tram or having a coffee or tea. This is also a good basic knowledge for people who want to be a leader or people who are in any organisation and team. Its language is easy to understand and some of the examples happen in everyday life as well.

In the end, I rate this 4 out of 5!

In St Kilda FC, I Lay My Heart Down

If you’re an Australian or have been living in Australia for a couple of years, you will know about AFL, a topic that I’m going to talk about. Australia has its own football which for me and any other foreign people looks similar to Rugby, well known as Footy. There are 16 teams, 10 teams based in Victoria and 6 others based in other states, that have to compete every year under the Australian Football League (AFL). Among 16 (17 to be, since a new team from Gold Coast will start their match next year) teams, I finally made a decision on which team to give my heart to.

St Kilda FC or well known as the “Saints”, was founded in 1873, is the team I have chosen to put my trust in. Everyone keeps asking me the same question when I say that I barrack for the red, white, and black team. I blame one of my best friends, who started uni together with me in Melbourne. (I remember when we first met, we were so naive. We didn’t know what to do in this new country. Good old times :D ). She started poisoning me with footy stuff 3 years ago, when she was doing her uni assignment to design a building which also represents Australia’s culture. She chose a Footy Stadium and St Kilda FC as her study case. And as you can guess, from that time on, I knew a little bit about footy, especially St Kilda FC.

It is true that my best friend is the person who introduced me to footy, but she’s not the person who made me fall deeply in love with them.

It started early this year, when my boss, ADM, came up with another brilliant idea: Footy Tipping among office team members and friends. I was about to choose Geelong as my team, because I knew they’re a great and best team in AFL, when ADM said that we had to have different teams. Since I didn’t really remember all the teams’ names, except Geelong, Hawthorn, Carlton, and St Kilda; ADM barracks for Geelong, AB is a Hawthorn’s supporter, and JS barracks for Carlton, I didn’t have any other choices. So yes, I choose St Kilda.

All my colleagues were surprised with my choice, and I explained that the reason was because I had been living in St Kilda area for 2 years and the fact that I like the St Kilda atmosphere. It’s calm, nice, and so welcoming. Oh and also, It’s near the beach!

During the 2010 AFL season, I fell deeper in love with the Saints. The more I see their matches, Live at the stadium, the more I fall in love with them. Especially when their Captain, Nick Riewoldt got injured. It made me have a soft spot for them when I saw how they struggled playing the game without their Captain, but they showed us; the fans, that they never give up and tried really hard to reach their dream. I saw how their skill improved from time to time, because they were missing their best player.

Another reason is their slogan “Fortius Quo Fidelius” which means “Strength Through Loyalty” . I probably considered as an old fashioned type of person because I have always thought that loyalty is one of the most important aspects in a team. Through loyalty you can gain trust and from trust you can know your team better. Through this intimate knowledge of one another you can work together to achieve your goals. This motto can be applied to many situations, like workplaces, where we all work together to gain success both in our personal and professional lives.

In Saints, I see that happens. Most of Saints’ players have been playing for St Kilda for their whole career. Because of that, they get to know each other better and gain trust from others. In my opinion, loyalty and trust are really essential in a team’s future.

Last but not least, I’m hoping that in this 2nd Grand Final this Saturday, 2 October 2010, St Kilda can reach their dream of 44 years. BRING THE CUP HOME!

We’re one, together we can reach our dreams! GO SAINTS!